on Truth and other impossible concepts

This week, Jubilee got a letter from one of the death row inmates that some of the Partners visit. Al read it out loud as part of his devotion session, and while the prisoner did not seem particularly optimistic about his situation (for good reason), he did have some very wise words to say, in his own way. I remember him saying something along the lines of: one can not choose whether one is good or evil, or what sins one is destined to commit, because saying that you have free will is to put yourself higher than God. But no matter what our actions turn out to be or what fate the Lord has in store for us, we must accept that it is our role in this life, and we must remember that God is within and around each and every one of us. We must 'Let Go and Let God.'
Scheduled to be murdered with the consent of society. What a lonely, lonely place to be and fate to accept.
I have been trying to wrap my mind around the concept of the Lord being above good or evil as of late. This isn't to say necessarily that God does evil things, but that our concept of good and evil is flawed. With so much in this world consisting of shades of grey and the goodness or badness of every situation being relative to points of view, for us to say that God would be simpler is absolutely ludicrous. I must learn to accept those parts of myself that I have labeled as evil as simply being parts of myself in the way that God has made me. Yes, I should try to change myself into a better person, but this means changing myself into a 'more true' person as opposed to a 'more good' person. While the 'more true' mostly lines up with what I used to consider the 'more good,' it also involves accepting and loving the faults in myself and the faults in others. As to how much I think I have figured out of what Truth is, Love is as far as I've gotten. Right now, I hope that it's as much as I need.

Jesus basically told his disciples that he could tell them what Truth was, but they wouldn't get it. I will have to content myself with the particles of it that the Lord chooses to show me.